There are a lot of things I feel right now. The first and foremost pressing thing is the jet lag. I swear I was gonna die yesterday working a 12 hour day. The second thing I feel is sick. I'm not sure when I'm supposed to eat and when I do eat, it usually makes me ill. I set my phone to tell me Phoenix and Japan time and that's probably the worst idea because it won't help get over jet lag any sooner but that brings me to my third feeling, overwhelming sadness.
Everyone on this trip was wonderful. I only have one complaint but this is not the place to air that. I made friends with the other groups and that is an anomaly in and of itself. There was Zac who became my dear friend and I could write pages about him but I won't. There was Genevi, my spunky CA surfer girl. Bubbly Stephanie and Rick Astley singin' Lucas were much fun as well and finally there was Shawn who brought the party to you. This guy was great. He walked around Japan with liquor in hand like it was Vegas and he was constantly bringing people over to meet us. It was magical.
I told Zac that I leave my heart in Japan, every time. I leave it and then I pick it up when I get there. This time is no different. Only it seems sadder for me because I have to come back to my mundane life and I won't see these people every day. I won't have breakfast with Zac or sit next next to him on the bus sharing an iPod. I won't get to giggle and gossip with Genevi and I won't get to watch Shawn work his "Captain Fucking Magic."
"Let's never come here again because it will never be as much fun."
The above quote is from
Lost in Translation which is easily one of my favorite movies. Zac said I was obsessed with in "in a good way." With his help I crossed a number of items off the
LiT List and I don't think I would have accomplished them without him. He truly was a great sport about the whole thing. Good to meet someone who understands my deep love of film.
So I guess now I HAVE to go to LA. Not that that is necessarily a bad thing. It is cooler over there at least temperature wise. I can't speak for the social scene because I just don't know. I hate to even think this but isn't it better to not make friends with the others? Because I already know that returning here will have me sad and now it's just extra sad because I made some wonderful friends. :(
In addition to stateside friends made, I finally got to meet the lovely Sakiko and despite my sour mood that day she was a joy. It was so nice to finally meet her. She was wonderful! Also, thanks to Party Shawn, I got to meet two lovely Japanese girls, Atsumi and Momoko, one of whom studied in the US. Momoko was extra special and offered to walk us back to the hotel! Atsumi was a trooper and even ran one night to meet us!
Writing this now makes me sad. I can honestly say that I had more fun on this trip than past trips and I'm sorry if I offend anyone by saying that but I was thinking of me personally and the amazing friends that I took away from this trip. I've never really counted myself as anyone who has a lot of friends. Acquaintances, yes, colleagues, absolutely, but friends, no. So every person who becomes a friend to me I count as precious. I hope that doesn't make me sound like a sad sad person.
I think I will stop there because this is gonna make me cry. I want to write another blog and include pictures with it. Hopefully, I will get around to it. :)
"From the west to the east I have flown to be near you. I have come all this way to be close, to be here with you and now, all my heart I will lay down precisely at your feet. My beloved, oh my sweet, all the gifts you have given me, the patience and the peace, cherry blossoms and the candy. I am yours, I am yours for as long, for as long as you will have me."
